Blair: I don't think you ran away because you couldn't handle death. I think it's because you couldn't handle feelings. You're not like that anymore. You're strong. You carry people. You carry me. You're becoming a man in a way that your father never was. Come. Let's say goodbye.

awwwwweeeeee...gg made me cry again..
sighh..

i didnt make it to class today.
was pretty sick and pretty lazy and the thought of my lecturer made me even sicker.
i still dont feel well.
.....

woke up this morning wit body aches and a sore sore throat.
dragged myself to dhobby ghaut since bb and me already planned to watch new moon at like 1040am.
yaa semangat like that..
while waiting for bb to buy food, my body was sooo hot, i knew i had fever
and that was even before we were in the theatre.
had hotdogs and crispy chicken before i popped two pills and was much much better after that.
i dont know why, pmsing i guess, but i actually cried watching bella scream and scream after they "broke up".
kinda psychotic, but i think i know how it feels like. I THINK. that explains the tears.
bb was like "its ok dd, im here wit you"
hahhaha. thank you.
i may side wit jacob. BUT if i were Bella, i'd go wit edward lorrrr..
who doesnt want to be bitten on the neck and then be an immortal. ok maybe only me..
sigh. classic.
after the movie, again issues on where to eat.
we wanted to settle for sakura, but i had no appetite, so accompanied bb instead to suntec to eat fried mee siam..
that was after we went to the spongebob thingy at suntec, and they dont sell spongebob plates!!! only dora..dang it.
and then just to satisfy my craving for cheesecake, we went to starbucks millenia and settled for new york's and java chip frapp.

selepas ituuuu, baru la ke sekolaahh.. and bb went for his tournament.
i think it must be the aircon in class because i was shivering and my temperature increase again.
met bb after class, popped another two pills, and slept all the way from harbour front to woodlands.
now i feel better, hopefully tmr will be a good day.

gossip girl is getting better and better.
with their song choice at least.
first its gaga then its jason derulo.
classic scene at thanksgiving dinner.
maureen wit tripp and serena
vanessa wit her mum
eric wit jenny
blair wit her mother
i seriously thought that i left itunes on, or my hp rang.
because suddenly siakkk MMMMWHATCHAAA SAYYYYYY, MMMM THAT YOU ONLY MEANT WELLLL...
hahahaha...rupenye gg lorrrrrr..

Blair: How do you find having a sibling? Someone whose sole purpose in life is to compete for your parents' love and attention?

classic waldorf.

wed night was crazy.
but seriously i fuckin hate the queue.
was telling faiz yesterday in sch on how the queue WASNT long BUT it felt like it.
he was like...YAAAA TOLD U GO BUTTER DONT WANT!!
butter has free flow for ladies AND men from 10 up till 1.
and the queue was long but fast.
can u believe it..
i might just give it a try some day.
and next week is the first anny of butter and read it somewhere that
"butter has the hottest hiphop/rnb dj in town."
and i thought all this while, dj ollie is the bomb.

hmm..i was thinking of doing something like that for my bdae wit my girls/boys.
on the 19th/20th which is a weekend.
but it seems like ppl are working i think....
sigh..i have to think of something else..

anywayyy, frs test yesterday was not bad..
out of 48 questions, i had doubts only abt 5 questions..
so i think i can pass it, its like 15% anyway....hah..
i cant wait for monday, because thats when we are finally free enough to watch new moon.
we'll probably watch the first movie at about 11, because i have class at 3 and bb has soccer tournament at 5.
busy busy busy.
one more test and 2 more presentations before the EXAMMSSSSS!!!!!!!


suddenly i miss my girls...
i cannot imagine how it'll be like after ama fly off..
sigh.

life is getting pretty mundane and very much routined.
its class and back, class and back.
i miss those free days riding on random bikes or in random vios cars wit the windows down
left hand outside holding on to dear woody so that it wont die out.
i have a test this friday, and revision will be on wed,
so i might have to give the night wit azira a miss.

tmr will be going to jurong point to have brunch, it has been like 3 years or even more since i went there last.
and class at 330 after that, whats new.
ok i shall go do my tutorials now.
damnthoseshits.
sigh.

i hope saturday will be a good chill out day wit you, my friend.

this 25 year old boy surprised the shit out of me today.
after fetchin me from sch, he told me he wanted to buy socks over at p.s.
i readily agreed, i didntt know why i didnt ask qns like "why of all places p.s just to buy a pair of freakin socks!!!"
maybe i was tooooo hungry and all i could think of was FOOOODD.
so after buyin socks at marks & spencers, it was on sale!! we couldnt find a decent place to eat.
me and bb ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS have this issue of where to eat.
because we made a pact of not eating fast food for a month, ate toooo many mcspicy burgers and cheese fries already!
and u know p.s's basement from one end to the other, ALL fast food..
we were super stuck and FINALLY decided on jalankayu prata shop just next to dhobby ghaut mrt..
it was pretty expensive. can u imagine, 1.20 for prata kosong?
but what the hell, service was pretty good and it was sort of an "outdoorsy" thingy.
i settled for roti john mixed wit chicken and mutton WIT EXTRA CHEESE for 5.50
and bb had masala thosai for like 3.80. i like my roti john but the thosai's gravy wasnt that OOOOMMMPPPHHH.
after all that, sat down outside the cathay and had our usual talk and chilling session.
it was close to 9.30 when bb said he wanted to go to the washroom to wash his face.
ok fine, nothing wrong wit that. THEN, HE INSISTED ON GOING TO THE washroom on the upper level floors because the one at the groundfloor was packed, which wasnt. BUT AGAIN, i didnt know why i did not question him, which i usually would.
i think we were at the 4th floor and after he was done, he INSISTED AGAIN on going up to the 5th floor to check out the popcorns and fried chickens and nachos and hotdogs despite being sooooo freaking full after our dinner. AND AGAIN, i relented.
you know how i am, especially wit him and junk. but i didnt know why, just now i was super cooperative.
we were sorta looking at the menu when
TADAAAAAA, he took out two tickets for christmas carol 3D from his wallet.
i swear i went silent for like a whole minute, snatched the tickets away from his hands and looked at them closely to see whether those tickets were REAL..
seriously, bb rarely surprises me, and even if he did, i would have suspected it.
but this time, he really caught me offguard..
i was still digesting the fact 5 minutes into the movie.
HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEE.
i hope this is the first of many more to come. hhaha.

thank u sooo much bb.
i love scrooge. (:
i love christmas. (:
and of course i love surprises. ((:
and yes, i love u. ((((((:
u made my night...

and so ive caught the two movies i wanted to catch ever soooo badly.
2012 and wizards of waverly place the movie!!!!!



teared more than a couple of times watchin 2012.
full of suspense. even bb teared towards the end when we THOUGHT the father didnt make it back.
oh wells, heroes will be heroes, they never die in movies.

managed to schedule record wizards of waverly place on hubstation like wayyyy back even before it was on tv.
tt was how excited i was. it was good. max grew up fast.

next will be new moon. and christmas carol i hope. ((:
back to muggin law.




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today was a pretty bad day for a "happy 45th"
had class in the afternoon, planned to catch 2012 at the cathay after that
but it was sold out again, like wtf. sigh.
bb and me ended up walking all the way to far east plaza in search of a decent place to eat and also ice blast.
nothing looked appealing and the latter was sold out at all 7-11 outlets like wtf.
i was already being a whiny brat, i refused to eat,i refused to walk any further and told bb i wanted to go home.
so we took 167 from fareast to head home.
was sulking the whole time and bb had to convince me to alight at the roti prata house to at least have supper.
maggi goreng sucked, only the fried chicken was at least edible, and the sup kambing was slightly better.
bb got me hershey's to cheer me up (i think)
and the journey home was surprisingly good.
thanks for tolerating me ehhhh..
tmr will be a better day i HOPE!



i know. i like bad things.

she made an appearance on GG S3E10.
fuckin creative fuckin addictive.
RAH RAH AH AH AH AH
ROMA ROMAA MA AH
GAGA OOH LA LA
WANT YOUR BAD ROMANCE

like finally aisyabb broke up wit that immature guy.
i cant say that i saw it coming..
but i was secretly hoping that day will come.
because aisyabb, seriously, this comes from the bottom of my heart,
YOU DESERVE SOO SOOO MUCH BETTER..
even apis said so, he felt ashamed that such man exists, a 25-year old mind u.
a man isnt a man if he doesnt treat u right..
when in a relationship, make your man bow down at your feet..(not in a kejam way ok)
but in return, respect him the way he deserves it.
let his ego rule sometimes, but ultimately u know secretly that u own the relationship.
girls should be wearing the pants, but can choose to wear pretty dresses at times.
alaaa, mcm main layang layang gtu, sometimes u let it fly, sometimes u pull it back.
im not saying that girls should make guys fear them.
but i like to have the upper hand in a relationship. u know, have some control.
not saying that men should be henpecked.
but give and take la..some days we take control, some days we hear what men have to say.

ive always believed that aisyabb has sooo much love to give, but unfortunately, u gave it to the wrong person.
there's soooo many guys out there who like you, I AM SURE ABT THAT.
its ok...one goes, more will come.
not that this guy is worth keeping anyway.
ive had my fair share of asses, but this one beats all the holes.
the biggest ass of all holes. the king of asses.
im sorry aisyabb but u dont deserve this, u should take back all the stuff u gave him.
tak berterima kaseh punye jantan.
guys like this patot disula. correct right?

bb, just know we are all here for u.. .
all of us.
(: sayang kau banyak2..

xoxo.

HAPPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR GREENPEA!!!
hope this day will be a day you wont forget. ((:
wish you all the best in your psa career, and hope bonuses will come like GEDEBAPPPP!!!!
i will always be your princess in pink.
and you know i love you.
cannot wait for our getaway in like six hours time!!!!!!!

xoxo.

i am looking forward to tmr. (:
i havent gotten anything for bb's bdae.
BUT i think im making him something at least..
he's goin to be 25. somehow, birthday surprises dont appeal to him anymore.
he claims he wants nothing from me. and he said not to get him anything.
i usually do, but since im broke now, i'll make him something.
and he' someone very easy to please.. (((:

im waiting for S3E07 and S3E08 of gg to stream now..
im starting to like carter already, his somehow deformed lips look cute.
and im way over nate archibald, HE IS BORING.
still prefer chuck over dan.
im slow, i know.
but assignments and tutorials are keeping me super occupied.
i have two midterms this friday alone.
financial reporting standards and buyer behaviour elective.
which i will start studying for soon.
later tonight. i study best from 12 to 3.

anyway, i need to get my ass to pateo cuscaden to destress soon.
my mates have been bugging me.
sigh

(;

yesterday's monopoly session was a nice break from tutorials and lectures..
had a *clink* session wit jerifin, ayyub and faiz. at a void deck near sch before that.
only ayyub didnt clink wit us, because he was such a sissy. hahaha.
nolaa.he had class at 330 while all of us had the day off except for stupid-waste-of-time orientation.
right after that, went to ama's house wit the help of aisyabb.HAHHAHAHAA.
kelakar la dok. i just realised ama's house and boon keng mrt DAMN near.
lepak at ama's house for a while, laughed out loud at american idol repeats, laughed out loud in ama's bedroom,
laughed out loud in the kitchen, and laughed out loud watchin rachael ray's.
HAHAHA. managed to stone for awhile even though it was during broad daylight.
after that,OFF TO SERANGOON TO PLAY!!!!!!
u know, when ikha and yat came, i had this feeling apis and yat know each other.
i dont know why..skali BAM!! amek kau..
dua2 dari ite tamp..HEHEHEHE..
AND amalina omar kalahhhhhh. MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA..
yat and ikha conquered the whole stretch of queenstown right up to tanjong rhu wit HOTELLSSS!!!!
and aisya had hotellss at geylang/joochiat and houses at ardmore orchard...while ama had to mortgage properties at bishan amk toapayoh..
HOHOHOHO. i was just busy giving them 2ks every time they passed go, banker katerkannnn...
late late late supper at macdees serangoon after that. OH HOW IT BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES!!!!
pictures at aisya's camera!!!

anyway, bb had a terrible fall at soccer training yest.
head first.
but bb's strong.
i hope he'll be fine.
i cannot wait for bb's birthday on monday.
not that i have anything to give him because im broke.
but i just might have something up my sleeveless tanktop.
(:
class at 330!!!!MALASSSSSNYERRRR!!!!

went to mustafa centre today to get bb's long awaited bagpack.
had late lunch at banquet at city square.
the place was quite huge!!!!
and the food mualannntee..delicious!
bb had half spring chicken while me & chicken chop always go.












dont think im not sad, because i still am..
but whatevs, i enjoyed myself today. ((:

u know i love you.

today ended on a sour note.
now i realized AGAIN where i stand.
of course he prioritizes soccer trainings and tournaments over me.
of course.
but having to realize it again, was like a tight slap across my face.
i thought soccer days were long gone.
i thought it was just another activity, like me and guitars.
they come and go.
and of course, i thought im just tolerating his horrible work schedule.
but oh wells, i thought wrong.
soccer trainings on his only off days?
that is just ridiculous.
i totally forgot what it felt like last time.
i dont think i want to go through that again.

oh.and im having second thoughts abt zoukout.
many many reasons.

i have assignments due in three days.
i can't do them like this.
he just has to spoil my mood tonight.

im glad ive no class today.
can finally catch up wit my assignments and tutorials yang tak perlu.
im finishing my master budget assignment,
and im soooo glad there is such a thing as microsoft excel.
the power of excel never fail to impress me.
enter the formula, click and drag. VOILA!~

i can't wait for the next three days.
i get to see bb all round and healthy.
after classes, will visit haji karim @ amk hopefully.
the nasi goreng sambal belacan is TO DIE FOR.
seriously.
and a visit to spectacle hut hopefully on saturday for our collection.
a visit to semb park for our step impromptu picnic,
choosing to ignore the confirm wet weather.
ahhh. we'll think of something surely.

the party--oo wit the girls hopefully hopefully will work out.
as usual, WE WILL COME UP wit something.
zoukout, I AM HOPING TO GO, bb is sooo jealous, he will be applying for leave.
which we know, very very tak boleh harap.
40:60 the leaves will NOT be approved.
sigh.
midterms coming in like 2 weeks?
i guess.

till then.



i like to believe that girls rule the earth.
especially us.

me and bb went to spectacle hut at sembawang shoppin centre to get our eyes checked today.
and both of us got new spectacles..((:
he has been wanting to get those nerdy black huge glasses for like ever.
we both got one. haha.
but they're not that huge.
just big enough to not look silly.
and we chose matt black because me and glossy dont go together.
bb looked funky cool in it, especially now that he has been losing and maintaining his weight.
which i hope will not change judging by what we ate just now.
macdees breakfast in the morning, and nasi goreng seafood in the afternoon.
and god knows what he ate at west coast wit his soccer buddies just now.
oh and i bought four boxes of color contacts for just 56bucks.
it was a steal.
we spent about 200+ bucks in spectacle hut alone.
and of course, we were so tempted to get the pretty and gorgeous rayban and gucci shades.
his for only 200,which was a steal again. and the gucci for 420.
BUT pretty gorgeous rayban and gucci shades have to wait.
GOD, they were soooo beautiful.
sigh.maybe next month.hopefully..

lucky me, ive finished my law tutorial, because right now, im in no mood for assignments.
penat.

thanks for everything bb.
ily.

im so so so so tired.
i have sch everyday since last thursday.
yes everyday.including sat and sun.the only break i have this week is wednesday.
and its back to sch on thursday and yes, i have tutorials and lectures this weekend also.
i barely have time to watch cartoons anymore.
and plus tuitions since its the exam period for the kids.

ok thats it, 5mins of lj-ing and i have to get back to my assignments.
till then.

):
xoxo.
oh did i mention i bought a new headphone cuz the pink one isnt working anymore.
the new one's limited edition, pink and black, and the pink's hotter.
ok la impulsive purchase la.

this morning i went to the doctor and got 8 different pills.
which cost  a total of 40 bucks, i guessed right.
one for asthma, one for phlegm, 3 different pills for sorethroat, one for flu, 2 for cough.
ridiculous. even the receptionist asked me what happened.
went back, ate bread wit butter/sugar, drank some milo.
ate those pills.
i dont know HOW on earth, but i managed to do some accounting tutorials.
watched fairly godparents on disney till i fall asleep.
woke up at 330.
went to the toilet, and my fuckin menses JUST had to come.
i was coughing, wheezing wit a block nose and on top of that, CRAMPS.
was trying soooo hard to slp.
dozed off till i woke up at 7.
was cringing and whining and making all sorts of noises because of the cramps.
managed to walk to the kitchen to eat those pills again.
i rememberd dozing off on the kitchen table for 5 minutes before daddy woke me up.
went back to my room, switched on the fan coz i was perspiring like crazy i dont know why, and my hands were shaking.
went to slp till about 9.
opened my eyes and just laid there missing bb soo much wishing he was there to nurse me.
took out my psp of all things and played FIFA10.
somehow calms me down, coz my heart was beating very very fast eversince i woke up, and i wasnt even doin anything.
texted  bb wit shaky hands.
at 10 decided to wake up and daddy massaged my shoulders.
made for me milo.
and here i am.
i feel better now.
i dont want to say anything in case it gets worse.

sigh. wasnt productive today.
didnt do enough tutorials.
tmr hopefully will be a better day,
have tuition in the morning, hope i am well enough.
kid's exams ard the corner.
have FRS class in the afternoon.
please God.help me get well.





i miss the girls.
i miss cooking wit azira, or rather she cooks for me while i pretend to be busy stirring whatever needs stirring.
hope to see yall soon.

and of course my greenpea.

and yes, im your princess.

xoxo.